30 December 2010

Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011

Greg 1949-2010
The end of another year and what a year! 2010 will forever be etched in my memory as one of those landmark years. A year ago I wrote this. As usual, I was full of optimism at the start of a new year but realistic enough to know that something bad had to happen, as the elastic of our living nightmare could not stretch any further.

Thank you for all your kind comments to each and every post I have written. I know some people answer every comment on their blogs, but I am usually rushing from one job to another in my attempts to keep busy busy busy, so I don't usually have time to comment to individuals. It does not mean I do not appreciate your comments, though, and when I have been a bit down your comments have truly helped.

Kay and my mother managed to get here for Christmas from different points on the compass, despite the threats of heavy snow keeping them away. We survived our first Christmas without Greg. Kay and I have always loved Christmas, so I wanted to decorate the house and the tree, as usual, putting a special star-shaped tag with a message to Greg in a prominent place on the tree. When we sat down to the big Christmas lunch, we began by raising our glasses to each other including Greg in the toast. We talked a lot about him - the films he would have liked on TV, the things he used to say or do. So although he was absent in person, he was there in spirit (though thankfully not the whisky kind!) It was a relaxing Christmas - no tensions or arguments like last year - and it seems strange to say it, but we enjoyed it.

Now, just like a year ago, I am gradually winding down to the last day of the year, waiting for the chimes of midnight and a new year emerging. I am again full of optimism, that Kay and I can finally shake off the last vestiges of the nightmare we have gone through and start to rebuild our lives.

I wish you and yours a happy New Year and may all your wishes come true.


HyperCRYPTICal said...

Oh Addy, after reading your 4/1/10 post - I felt so sad and hurt for you. You and Kay are truly brave, admirable people.

I am so pleased you had an enjoyable Christmas and were able to remember Greg and also feel optimistic about your future. I wish you a very Happy New Year. The world is your oyster, gal!

Anna :o]

PS Looking at your sixtieth birthday photograph - I still can't beleive you're sixty!

Anonymous said...

Hi Addy,

Glad Christmas went well and at a very hard time you are all full of optimism. I really do from the bottom of my heart hope you have a good year ahead, you deserve it. I can only imagine there will be hard times in between but around that let there be all good.

Happy new year,


Achelois said...

Happy New Year Addy with the emphasis on the Happy and New.

As Nechtan so rightly says, you truly deserve Happiness and my most genuine wish for you is that 2011 brings this to you.
I sincerely hope that 2011 is full of new beginnings that make you smile.

As HyperCRYPTICAL wrote regarding your 4/1/10 post, I felt the same. Sometimes you humble me Addy, I know you had no choice but to cope at times if only for Addy's sake,when inside you must have felt broken. Your inner strength & optimism help to remind me that I must perserve no matter what. I also am so pleased that Christmas went well and that despite the trauma you have all endured Greg was remembered well. Another reminder to me to find the good in life, when I can be prone to spiral into the negative.

For the minute I appear to have mislaid my blogging mojo and hope to find it again in 2011. In the meantime I am afraid all you bloggy people have to put up with me in your comment boxes.

So finally I get to the point.


*Sixty – surely you jest! Your skin glows what is your secret.

Hadriana's Treasures said...

What a wonderful photo of you! Lovely to see you. You sound re-energised. Well done to you and Kay for getting through some remarkably difficult times. Thank you for sharing them with us.

Wishing you and Kay all the very best for 2011! Hxx

Kit Courteney said...

Oh, will you stop with the taunting pictures!

You can no longer fool us that you are 60. We've worked out that you're SUCH a liar... so just come clean!

Seriously, wishing you, your daughter and your mother (not forgetting Snoopy) a very happy and prosperous 2011.

May happiness be your best friend all year ;)

Working Mum said...

Wishing you and Kay all the best for the coming year and the strength to start rebuilding your lives whilst remembering Greg for the man he was, not who he became.

PS I think you and Pamela Stephenson have deals with the devil. There's a portrait in the attic, isn't there?

Eliza said...

Happy New Year Addy, wish you a good one.

Manchester Lass, Now and Then said...

Addy, may 2011 bring you the happiness you so deserve♥ I'm with Kit, there is no way you are 60! Spill the beans or share your beauty secrets:) Linda xxx

Furtheron said...

Happy New Year - following your year has been valuable for me... I'm only an arms length away from being like Greg I have to remind myself of that daily. Sometimes it is too easy for a self obsessed alcoholic like me to be only thinking about me - your story reminds me of all the "friendly fire" damage that drinking does.

As all say - you lie about your age clearly :-)

andrea said...

what a beautiful foto .. you look much younger.. wish you lots of good moments ..love andrea

Retiredandcrazy said...

I love your spirit Addy. We also talk about Davy all the time. He still lives amoung us, as does the "old" Greig live with you.

Nota Bene said...

I missed this over the New Year...sorry...so wanted to wish you all the best for 2011...I'm told this is the new decade rather than as I said last year! Hope 2011 is a fabulous year for you, Kay and your mum

Sasmita said...

Wishing a great new year to all in your family Addy.
We all have good times and bad times.... but must ride thrugh the wild tide - the world around is beautiful.

Flowerpot said...

What a lovely picture Addy - and I do so hope that 2011 will bring you love, happiness and peace.

Millennium Housewife said...

Happy New Year Addy, all love xxxxxx

Kelloggsville said...

Thank you for sharing your journey through out 2010, you help me in many ways too. May 2011 be full of blessings for you xx

Linda said...

I'm very happy to have you in my comments boxes. I know you will have a wonderful 2011.

aims said...

No way! I thought that was a picture of Kay! You are NOT 60!! NoT!

How do you look in your 20's? Tell me the secret - please!

You are often in my thoughts my friend. How did I know you were a November baby too? Because you have that special strength inside you that endures the worst and comes out the other side - still ready to conquer anything thrown at you and looking for more.

I hope you will find you in this coming year. You gave so much of you away to Greg without a second thought. Now you need to find and be good to you.

I know there will always be a spot inside that hurts from what you have experienced. As the years go by the wall around it will get thicker and it will hurt less and less. That's okay. But let the strength that got you through all of this help you through the quiet days and long nights.

Thinking of you from here in New Orleans.